Okay Toronto. Time to find a job. I’m assuming it’s going to be just as fun as apartment hunting… but that wasn’t even fun.
I’m the worst.
Mars Diner on Yonge still has pumpkin pancakes. I needs me some of those.
Thanksgiving dinner has now come and gone. Time to quickly make a family so that I can force them to be the cast of Nepolian Dynamite for halloween
A child blatantly pointed at me and whispered something to her mother at the grocery store today and I couldn’t help but feel bullied. I don’t know what she said but I’m sure it was nothing nice because I had a rat tail happening and I was wearing an over sized sweater with spandex pants. In fact that’s probably exactly what the child said. Ugh how could she?!? She knows how to cut to the core.
When I’ve made a new friend and I’m waiting for them to text me.
When I drink too much on a Monday night and start remembering things on Tuesday.
now that my play is over and work hasn’t officially started this is all I do.. but sub out night for morning… or afternoon, evening. Anytime really.
Made it out to a new bar last night called Measure on the corner of Bloor West and Brunswick. I have to say I didn’t really my kind of place when we got there but it turned out to be a hidden gem! The bar staff were great and they have an amazing little patio out back that makes you feel like you got off the Bloor Line and ended up in Brooklyn. The owner was so nice and hung out with us until around 3:00am after they closed for the night. He told us all about his soup company that he started and about moving here from San Francisco. It was really refreshing to go to a bar and meet interesting and genuinely nice people. It was a great time and I’ll definitely make my way back there in the future!
Apartment stress officially over! Time for a trip to Value Village!!
So I’m moving upstairs from where I’m currently living. I know the area, the place is huge and bright with plenty of room for activities. BOOOYEAH!
It’s weird to move to a new city. I know a good deal of people in Toronto but I have no idea how to go about making new friends. Where am I supposed to start with that. I’m too poor to go do fun things every day and my time has been evenly split between stage managing a show for the SummerWorks festival, finding an apartment, organizing my life, trying not to have a mental breakdown. Also I’ve been trying to have a little bit of fun on top of all of that.
The only time I’ve made such a big move was to go to university in a small town. You are immediately accepted into the fray because everyone is from somewhere else and you make it your home. You have a fairly full schedule and you also have tons of time to make a fool of yourself, make mistakes, get drunk and learn a few things. You find someone that has similar interests to you, or who can lend you their clothes, and you cling to them giving them the title of friend until other similar pairings attach themselves to you and you’ve got a group… well at least that’s how I remember it.
I’ve never been very good at putting myself out there and making new friends and it’s only in the past year or so that I’ve really come to terms with what that means. There’s no more university security blanket to catch me when I’ve had too much to drink and can’t just stumble home. When you try to make friends by challenging people to drinking competitions or by telling them about the time you puked on the train tracks outside of the local bar, you might quickly notice that these tactics are no longer applauded and accepted but frowned upon.
I don’t think I’m close to leading a real life, I’m years away from that, but I think it’s time for me to learn how to conduct myself in social situations. I read a post that said people who are introverts are new to this earth, they haven’t been reincarnated, and those people who are extroverted have been reincarnated many times and are comfortable with the way this world works. That would be a nice excuse. Honestly thought, I think my introversion has a lot more to do with the fact that I’m intimidated by people who I think are cool, annoyed by many of the people that are extensions of people I already know and mildly terrified of everyone else. Introducing myself to people? Going to a party with only 1 person I know… no thanks. I’d rather have my teeth cleaned with a BBQ brush. I get really sweaty in any sort of social situation when I am mildly uncomfortable.
I’ve been content to do things on my own for a long time. I am very self sufficient but it gets to a certain point that drinking a bottle of wine every night by yourself just gets sad and isn’t cool and fun. So I’ll watch 5 hours of Netflix and I’ll grow emotionally attached to every character on Orange is the New Black while I get increasingly sweatier because my roommates are going to have people over.
I am a loser. I’m okay with that. I just wish I was cool with everyone else knowing how much of a loser I am.
when people stop in the middle of the sidewalk as I am trying to get somewhere.